
In my lifetime I have experienced numerous national and even personal tragedies, but there are specific instances that I can remember like it was yesterday. On April 20, 1999, one teacher and fourteen students were brutally killed at Columbine High School in Littleton, Colorado. As I walked into my home after a “tough” day as a sixth grader at Visitation B.V.M, I was instantly struck with live gruesome images on television. With my eyes glued to the television set, it was like time had completely stopped and all of my junior high issues were out the window. What also was out the large, perfectly white, living room window was a cold and dreary day. Even though I knew no one that went to Columbine, I remember feeling like this was a catastrophe that I would remember forever. The sky was dark and dull, the room was dim, and there I sat watching students, just like myself, jump from
windows while covered in blood and looking for another chance at life. It’s like, why did this have to happen to them, when it could have been absolutely any high school in America? You can try to figure it out, but there is no answer to that question. But just reflecting upon that thought, allows us to realize that at any single moment our life could be over, and for no apparent reason at all.
Parents shouldn’t have to worry if their child is going to be safe when they are at school. The school environment is supposed to be a place for children to learn and better themselves, it is not a warzone. And after the Columbine shooting, it felt like that safety net and security of the school atmosphere was no longer in place. I went to Norristown Area High School, which is located in the suburbs outside of Philadelphia and needless to say, does not have the best reputation. Although the actual school building was nice, the student population didn’t match up. There were a lot of troubled students who really did not care for an education, so being at school was a tough task for them. I suppose this is the case in most high schools, but here things were a bit different. Every day I was sure to witness a fight whether it was during lunch, or even in class. Okay, well I guess fights are going to happen when hormones are running wild and there are two-thousand students closely interacting, but what I witnessed my senior year was scary. Like actual, life-threatening, we might be the next Columbine scary.
I don’t know if our reactions were because of all of the hype about school shootings in the media, or if we genuinely thought we were in danger, but either way I can still remember it. It was fourth period where I sat in Spanish class, goofing around as usual, when all of a sudden our superintendant’s voice came over the loud speaker. We were all a little confused because announcements were never made during the middle of the day, and the tone in her voice was unusual. She was notifying us that we would remain in “lock down mode” until the situation was settled, and that we would be dismissing from school early. We all looked at each other dying for details. What was happening? Students were pulling their cell phones out of their pockets, calling parents and whoever else might have some sort of outside information. Not knowing exactly what was going on, we all panicked. After the lock down was over, and we were dismissed from the building, we came to find the parking lot covered in police cars. Eventually, we found out that the night before, a student had threatened to bring a gun to school and in fact did. A fight, or what we called a battle, had broken out between two large groups and a gun was involved. Thankfully, no one was hurt, but this was terrifying for us as students. Just knowing that our lives were in danger, and knowing that in an instant any of us could’ve been killed was shocking. I’m sure we weren’t the first high school students to feel this way after what happened on April 20, 1999.
The Columbine tragedy was just the beginning of what I believe to be a repulsive trend. Years following, students across America began to copy what they saw on April 20th. It seems as though every time I turn on the television, another student is caught plotting to shoot up their school “Columbine style.” What on God’s earth would provoke these children to want to do something like this? Is it the media attention and lifelong reputation that the killers receive after committing such a repulsive act? Well, about several attempts and eight years later on April 16, 2007, one student got his wish and will remain embedded in our minds and history books forever. The Virginia Tech massacre is the deadliest school shooting, and the deadliest shooting of a single gunman in all of United States’ history. What the shooter, Seung-Hui Cho, did
impacted people across America. It didn’t just make us realize that we are fragile beings that are vulnerable to outside harm, but it allowed us to take a step back and analyze the society that we live in today. This incident sparked international criticism of the United States’ laws and culture, saying that change was needed with our gun laws and the way that we handle certain situations. President George W. Bush passed the first major federal fun control measure in more than thirteen years on January 5, 2008. This incident also prompted the passage of other laws as well. In response to the Virginia Tech massacre, Texas Governor Rick Perry proposed that licensed gun owners be allowed to carry their weapons anywhere in Texas, which would even include schools. This law could have a positive effect in the future because it provides a sense of protection, but I just think it stinks that we have to make laws like this. We shouldn’t feel threatened everywhere we go, but in this day and age many of us do.
The media attention that is given to national tragedies affects the way that we lead our everyday lives. For example, school shootings may not only make students think twice when walking to class, but now certain people are being stereotyped due to the media’s criticism and in the end, that impacts how we treat others. Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, the two boys behind the Columbine shooting, were said to be members of “The Trenchcoat Mafia.” Now, I’m not sure what you think of when you hear that term, but I envision two gothic boys with black hair, eyeliner and a long black trenchcoat. You know what type of person I’m talking about. Either way, I have to admit that I have felt unsafe when I have encountered “those kids.” I can remember sitting in class during high school, and just staring at this gothic looking boy for minutes. So many thoughts ran through my mind, but I just kept thinking, this boy is definitely going to bring a gun to school one day. Maybe he was just depressed, because like Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, he was probably bullied around at school because of what he wore and who he hung out with. He was actually a really sweet kid, but because of the way the media decided to spin the Columbine killers as outcasts and freaks, I noticed other students treating this kid like he had a highly contagious disease. It really is like one big vicious cycle, but we have to learn to think for ourselves despite the stereotypes that are placed upon
certain groups. Yes, it does seem that most students who get caught plotting massacres and bringing guns to school are the same students who get picked on, but that does not mean that we should shun them even more. Treating them like freaks of nature is not going to help the situation, it only makes it worse, which is why I feel that we should treat everyone as we would like to be treated. I know that sounds so cliché, but really, there is no need to be mean to others for no reason because nothing good will come out of it.
My outlook on life has definitely changed as I got older and wiser. I still have a lot to learn, but I’m happy with the way that I have matured. Even though I was not directly involved with or connected to these tragedies, they have really affected me and the way I lead my life. September 11th was another life-altering event for me that allowed me to realize that we cannot take life for granted. Obviously, absolutely no one in America could have ever predicted what was going to happen that day; otherwise something would have been done to prevent it. I am deeply sorry for the families and friends of those whose lives were taken on 9/11, because like the other victims in the tragedies I have mentioned, they did not deserve this. It just goes to show you that at any point in time our lives can be in danger. We are in danger when we are driving in a car or walking down the street, and obviously even when we are at work or school. This is why we cannot be scared to take chances and live life to the fullest, because we never know when this beautiful ride is going to end. I’ve learned that we must have this kind of attitude towards life not only from the national tragedies that we have endured in America, but from personal situations that I have had to deal with. We are all faced with obstacles that sometimes seem impossible to surpass, but time does not stop for anyone. We have to remember that life goes on, and most likely soon there will be another completely new obstacle that we must tackle.
Even if it is something that will never go away, the only option is to make the best of the situation that life throws at us and cancer is a prime example. According to the American Cancer Society, 7.6 million people worldwide died from cancer in 2007. Finding out that you have cancer, and knowing that there is no cure must be the worst feeling in the world. I took care of my Aunt Joanne from the time she was diagnosed with cancer and up until she passed away. This was one of the most inspirational times of my life. The whole time, she remained so positive and optimistic, even though the brain tumor had left her with only eight months to live. I don’t know how I would react if I was faced with this dilemma, but what else can you really do? I don’t think she realized it, but she had a huge impact on my life. Now, if I have a bad day or make an error during a softball game, I know things could be a lot worse and that I should just be thankful for having the gift of life.
It’s been twenty-one very fast years, but I have learned so much in what has seemed like such a short amount of time. Now as a junior at Ursinus College, I have experienced times where I thought nothing else could go wrong, but the bottom line is that shit happens and there is nothing you can do but learn from the past. Life’s rewards wouldn’t be so sweet if we never had to work for them. Overall, I can say that I because of the tragedies I have seen, and experiences I have faced I’m a better person and I’m extremely grateful for that. I would like to leave you with a quote from the move Blow that helps me to get through those days when I think I won’t make it. “It'll work out, it always does. This is the way it goes, sometimes you're flush and sometimes you're bust, and when you're up, its never as good as it seems, and when you're down, you think you're never gonna be up again. But life goes on, remember that.”
Written By: Kristina Moore